Slowly, we are, each one of us, encircled by fear. Every passing minute makes us more conscious of the coming day. Mom is fidgety. Regardless of the brave, smiling facade she puts up for us, she thinks more about whether the operation is the right decision or not. Dad is crumbling within. He keeps asking me if I am ready for tomorrow. I understand that question is rhetorical, but whether he has the answer or not is something I don't know.
While we are dawdling in such uncertainty, time keeps ticking on. The day has almost dawned upon us. 12 hours from now, I will be at Parel paying up and signing the formalities for mom. It will still be a couple of days before the operation, but then we would have crossed the half way line.
Relatives have been calling incessantly since the morning. Some assure. Some cry. Others pretend that they will be there. The only people who will be there, have no words to say other than saying 'Eat right. You need to be strong'.
Strength. Another thing that I am losing. Fast. I have had a headache for the last 12 hours. My brain is addled. My hands feel weak. I tried working out a little, but my mind could no longer push my body to the limit.
I don't know what happens tomorrow. I just hope it is for our better. I just hope.
While we are dawdling in such uncertainty, time keeps ticking on. The day has almost dawned upon us. 12 hours from now, I will be at Parel paying up and signing the formalities for mom. It will still be a couple of days before the operation, but then we would have crossed the half way line.
Relatives have been calling incessantly since the morning. Some assure. Some cry. Others pretend that they will be there. The only people who will be there, have no words to say other than saying 'Eat right. You need to be strong'.
Strength. Another thing that I am losing. Fast. I have had a headache for the last 12 hours. My brain is addled. My hands feel weak. I tried working out a little, but my mind could no longer push my body to the limit.
I don't know what happens tomorrow. I just hope it is for our better. I just hope.
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